Full Moon in Virgo: Knight of Pentacles, Reversed
10 Mar 2012 Leave a Comment
in Card of The Day Tags: Earth Changes 2012, Knight of Pentacles, Moon in Libra
“A force of nature, not diverted from the wrong path,” facade.com says about the Knight of Pentacles, Reversed.
On February 29, tornadoes ripped across three states in the Midwestern United States.
To me, the Knight of Pentacles, Reversed expresses physical incompatibilities and emotional obstinacy. The Capricorn/Taurus correlation leads me to look up where the ruling planets of those two signs are, and where they might be in relationship to the Moon at this time. 
Cafe Astrology gives a “This week in astrology” report (sorry, no permalink) and has this to say about the Full Moon in Virgo: “Some sort of crisis (which can be a crisis of consciousness) or sudden awareness of a lack in our lives provides us with a golden opportunity to explore our emotional needs within the context of the house polarity where the Full Moon occurs in our natal charts. This Full Moon urges us to strike a balance between work and service, practicality and impracticality, criticism and acceptance.”
This sense of balance lines up with the Knight of Pentacles, reversed. In his persona, we see the crisis point attributed to this Full Moon. This Knight has gotten confused about what service is. He either martyrs himself to be able to brag to others about what a good person he is, or he maintains a fixed level of self-aggrandizement and denial that there could be anything he needed to change about himself. Turned inward, he reflects our own tendency to be confused in looking at ourselves. The solution for this is simple: opening up the heart space to loving communication from the Universe about what we can do in the moment to bring the situation to its highest and best potential that we can. This ideal-sounding scenario, our highest and best potential for the moment, is never going to be truly perfect. We will always have our own faults and other people’s choices, to add to the equation. However, as a consequence of increased mindfulness, we will find ourselves noticing the naturally perfect moments in time that are constantly happening.
So, what’s so out of balance, right now? What would be lending a hard aspect to Capricorn’s ruler, Saturn? Is it simply that time, as it heals all wounds, also has the power to dull some connections that at first seem to sparkle? Could this be a case of burnout, synchronizing with the rather large solar storm that happened in tandem with this Full Moon? The Knight of Pentacles, reversed can also move sluggishly, or represent that force of nature which just will not divert from its course.
Toward the end of the section on ‘this week in astrology’ is a section on aspects and relationships of planets with each other, where I found this: “
Venus opposition Saturn. We keep others at arm’s length, unsure of whether we are loved or not. This is a somewhat inhibiting influence when it appears that people value utility over true love. An element of seriousness permeates our love relationships. We may feel criticized and inhibited, unloved and unsatisfied, but our worst enemies may be ourselves and our own fears of getting close to others. Not a good influence for financial endeavors. Burdens are magnified.”
Leap Day: Quarter Waxing Moon in Gemini
29 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
in Card of The Day, Global Consciousness Reading Tags: Gemini, Looking Glass Tarot, Queen of Cups, Queen of Pentacles, Three of Pentacles, Two of Swords, XI Justice
Leap Day only happens once every four years, so I decided to do a five card reading for the day.
I wanted to relate the question to Leap Day, so I researched some of the lore surrounding Leap Day. Apparently, today is a day for spells with unlikely outcomes, so I decided to ask: How is the unlikely becoming reality, this year? This reading applies to this day, only, as with my astrological readings, not any day someone happens to read it, like my other occasional cards of the day. I drew the cards from my Wonderland Tarot deck, and laid them out in an invoking pentagram, with the first card at the bottom point (note: in this deck, swords are flamingos, wands are peppermills, cups are hats, and pentacles are oysters).
Card One (bottom point): The everyday reality, the mundane, the norm. XI Justice.
“You are old, Father William,” the young man said,
“And your hair has become very white;
And yet you incessantly stand on your head—
Do you think, at your age, it is right?”
The figure of Old Father William stands on his head for the Justice card, the scales suspended from his feet. I suspect this image was inspired by the third verse of the poem, where Father William says that in his youth he took to the law, and argued each case with his wife. This card serves as a reminder of the cosmic balance that is the universal norm, the kind of balance that overarches any human concept of ethics or morality. People already seem to be waking up to this grander concept of universal justice, realizing that suffering is perpetuated by worry, arguments, and divisions. The Occupy Movement seems to be a sign of this global awakening to the truth that we all share our consciousness.
Card Two (top left hand point): The irrational side of reality. Queen of Hats, Reversed. In this deck, we have the White Queen, This speaks to me of the attitudes of outmoded authority clinging to power: the unconscious ego clinging to unconsciousness out of fear of annihilation. This Queen reversed embodies restlessness, dishonour, jealousy, and a petty mind. How fitting that an archetypal feminine card appears on the side of the pentacle that corresponds to the feminine side of consciousness. The Queen of Cups is at war with her own instincts, and suspicious of other women who may or may not pose a threat. As a collective species, we are jealous of power and fearful of external enemy images. This attitude works to promote solidarity on some level, but we can only survive so long when we begin to isolate ourselves by thinking in a minority mindset. To me this exposes the shadow side of our culture, in terms of our dishonorable acts and the guilt that we collectively bear because of oppressive power structures and attempts to deny the feminine principle.
Card Three: What appears to be real, but isn’t. Two of Flamingos, Reversed. The first statement in the description for this card on Crystal-clear Reflections states that “Things are happening now” so of course the first thing that jumps out at me is that “now” is really illusion, because time is an illusion (one of the many concepts which the ancients have known, that modern science is just now proving). This card also refers to the extremes of either getting caught up in the decision-making process, causing mental gridlock, or your decisions have become hasty and impulsive. In terms of the collective consciousness, I feel as though this card refers to our engagement with policy, our desire to put everything into a box and make all the lines straight and able to comprehend in two dimensions (about which philosopher Alan Watts has interesting conversation points), our obsession with timeliness, and our feeling that events are accelerating, bringing us to a 2012 singularity (again relating to the temporal illusion). We seem to be experiencing an urgency to make decisions in our lives, when really the only pressure is generated from within ourselves.
Card Four: The Invisible Hand of Fate. Three of Oysters, Reversed. Alice stands holding the pig-baby in her arms, under a tree in which three oysters stand on the lowest branch. This card when applied to humanity indicates either obsession with or neglect of work. When applied to the invisible hand of fate, the implication of inexperience stands out to me. We as a species are a relatively new occurrence in the history of the earth; being new, we are young, in the relative scheme of things. We have taken on a corporeal form, an ego, the personality which is also illusion. We are working too hard for the wrong goals, when this card appears reversed. Our challenge is to realize that we are here to cooperate with the rest of existence. To me this speaks of the human condition, that we are constantly trying to ‘fix’ things that exist perfectly well on their own. We are being reminded by natural circumstances that we must let go of ourselves, in order to attune to the Cosmic Justice that is the true reality.
Card Five: The Most Unlikely Outcome that will come to be. Queen of Oysters. This card does not usually represent surprises, but practicality. I feel this is a fitting counterpoint to the Queen of Hats, Reversed, at the beginning of this reading. This card embodies Earth’s consciousness, the creative impulse within every human being to create something beautiful. In this deck, she is portrayed as the Duchess. As the Duchess says to Alice, “Be what you would seem to be — or, if you’d like it put more simply — Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise.” It seems in the high maintenance consumer culture that dominates the world, the consciousness of the Earth Herself emerges to send us a message of love and unity, to be as we are, to release worry of anything that we would aspire to become. Nurturing and opulence become our watch words for this year, as we return to honoring the natural order of existence. This to me seems like a very unlikely outcome, when a lot of our collective reality is driven by what we can manufacture. Here, we have a genuine, nurturing, kind mother who guides us gently toward growth and healing.
Sum total of the parts: the numerological correspondence to this reading is 16 The Tower, and 7 The Chariot. This basically means that it is only through self empowerment and direction of the will that we can manage the impact of wide scale disasters. It also indicates that the unlikely outcomes of this year revolve around conscious control of the ego, which is not power-over, but rather maintaining power-from-within. The presence of two Queens in the spread indicates that we are finally reaching a point where our collective femininity is restored to power and balance in itself, that we might overcome our fears of the ability to create, but instead honor the chaotic spontaneous process as divine.
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New Moon in Pisces: The Queen of Wands?
23 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
in astrology and tarot, Card of The Day, destiny, Wands
The Queen of Wands, at first glance, does not appear to be a likely candidate for the New Moon in Pisces. This new moon is conjunct with a handful of other planets in the sign of Pisces (and, on a personal note, Pisces falls in my natal 9th House, giving me some access to cosmic energy, which has been a blast, today and mostly taken form of multitudinous internet synchronicity, so far, and I’m looking forward to my own personal new moon healing ritual tonight). Combine this with the energy of Mars retrograde in Virgo (about which my favorite astrologer Astrobarry has a list of real complaints) and the theme of the day would seem to be lethargy, or at the best sluggishness. The Queen of Wands is usually depicted as an assertive, action-based woman. I think here she embodies the force behind what Lady Yeshe Rabbit describes as response: taking a reaction-based emotion and converting it into fuel for wise responsive action I’ll leave it up to you to follow up on PantheaCon-related current events, if you’re so interested. I included the article by Yeshe Rabbit because her conduct in this challenging situation is an example, to me, of how the Queen of Wands stands tall in this new moon in Pisces combined with Mars retro in the sign of Virgo.
The Queen of Wands is a bold and noble leader of her group. Her strong personality pushes her to the forefront of her social network, and in her dignified aspect (meaning, upright) I like to think of her as someone who shares power freely because she knows that by empowering others, she does not diminish her own power, but builds up the collective power of the whole. The only diminishing there applies to power struggles as the mindset “there is no them, there is only us” takes hold and strengthens the group in solidarity. This is the sort of leader I strive to be. I do fall short of the mark at times, and other times other people misinterpret my motives, but the only exaltation I desire is the kind that happens through acts of service, courage, and integrity.
The influence of the Queen of Wands on this particular starscape calls us to use this connection to our dream space to build upon our leadership skills. The Queen can initiate new projects with the confidence and dedication to see them through to their end, and is often managing several projects at once, bringing them to fruition. She is confident in her abilities to act her desires into being. Any time she turns up in a reading, she reminds us of our potential to be strong and courageous, to let our heart swell with desire and to measure our own actions and those of others with integrity.
What are you delegating in your life? How well do you see your management abilities? Are you displaying your talents openly and balancing your dreams with a strong work ethic?
Waning Moon in Scorpio: XVI The Tower
14 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
in astrology and tarot, Card of The Day, Major Arcana Tags: balance, catastrophes, least favorite cards, Luna, mysteries, Scorpio, waning, XVI The Tower
The Tower depicts the Divine bolt of lightning piercing the heavens to strike down any structures we have built in attempts to elevate us over larger powers. At this time, unexpected catastrophes occur that serve to level the ideological constructs that we form of ‘the way things are.’
The Tower started as one of my most dreaded cards. When I saw it in a reading, I would prepare the seeker for the worst possible outcome. Now, I certainly still consider it to herald a life-changing, probably unfavorable event, but I work to emphasize the potential that comes with this event: a blank slate. Everything that existed before this is swept away, allowing for the seeker to rebuild their life on a true foundation, based on honesty, trust, and love. This is not to say I downplay the disaster implicated by this card. The most extreme devastation occurs when a person is strongly invested in a certain outcome, but even when loving non-attachment is achieved, such widespread destruction and magnificent suffering are painful to watch. The Tower card says nothing if not, “This event will be radically different than what you expect, or even desire…”
With the destruction that the Tower depicts, we have a chance to let the reality soak in: nothing is permanent. Everything is subject to change in some form or another. To practice non-attachment is to invest in the ways that our Spirit grows as a result of our activities; those are the things we can always carry with us. The Tower gives us the impetus to depart from our material values into the realm of Spirit.
What has been destroyed, was built on a false foundation. It can be a powerful blessing to have something like that removed all at once, rather than the structure standing over time, crumbling slowly, to collapse after even more trust has been poured into it. Combined with Luna’s transit through Scorpio, this card amounts to a breakdown of structure in terms of secret codes being exposed, sexual liberation, and violent passions breaking through the surface. Incidentally, February 13th brought riots in Greece resulting from a vote by its government for further austerity measures (see http://www.pbs.org/newshour/bb/world/jan-june12/greece1_02-13.html).
What structures in your life no longer serve you? How have secrets been exposed, today? How are oppressive structures breaking down around you? Are you suffering because you built something on that false foundation, or celebrating your newly found liberation?
Full Moon in Leo: The King of Pentacles
14 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
in Abundance and Prosperity work, Card of The Day Tags: King of Pentacles, Leo, Moon
I drew a card for this whole full moon phase, because Luna goes void of course today in preparation for her move into Virgo, but not until after 10 p.m. my time (MST). In any case, the King of Pentacles showed up, somewhat unexpectedly, and dared me to find his relevance to this situation (beyond the Leo-royalty connection, that is).
First, let us talk about Luna’s influence on us in a transit through Leo. Any way you slice it, the Moon in Leo is all about claiming personal power. Luna interacts with our unconscious desires, our most tender emotions, and our wild untamed nature. Leo is the sign of leadership, public presence, and will power. Articles that I have read on this transit mostly tend to side-step the messier potentialities of this dynamic (maybe I’m just more likely to notice because my natal moon is in Aquarius, directly opposite of Leo). This combination of influences implies the power struggles that can happen when desires of power or feelings of powerlessness are normally suppressed. On the flip side, for those working to bring more of their life into consciousness, a Leo Moon presents opportunities to empower Self and Community, such as the Come As You Are Amazon Priestess Tribe‘s Mother of the New Time project.
The King of Pentacles has nothing astrologically to do with Leo, being associated with Taurus. He is the incarnation of the powers of Earth, an anchor of stability. He is master of his property and does not let his circumstances rule him. Rather, he maintains his position of providing security for his family and tribe, with a strong work ethic, determination and a ‘can-do’ attitude (because he knows from experience that it can be done!). Earth is a feminine element, along with water, so the King of Pentacles is at peace with his feminine side (if not quite as in tune with it as the King of Cups). He acknowledges his feelings comfortably and appreciates art (and often a good wine).
Luna in Leo feels stabilized by some hidden presence that I couldn’t quite put my finger on by just looking at this card. Venus, Taurus’ planetary ruler, is in Aries, and the Sun is in Aquarius – no obvious connections there. Doing some further research of what is going on with the planets, I found that Jupiter is in Taurus until June of this year. This brings in steady expansiveness, and a comfort in the material, broadly. What it all seems to boil down to is: growth and change need skillful management and oversight by the consciousness to manifest the best results.
Occasional Card of the Day: Page of Wands, Reversed.
18 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
in karma, Minor Arcana, reversals, Wands Tags: exposure, instant karma, Page of Wands, Reversals, shadow truth
Incidentally, Luna began her transit through Sagittarius, today, and dwells in her 20th mansion (about which astrology weekly says: “it helps for the taming of wild beasts, for the strengthening of prisons, it destroys the wealth of societies, it compels a man to come to a certain place”). The phrase “it compels a man to a certain place” especially caught my eye. The Page of Wands, reversed, personifies the shadow side of Sagittarius: blind optimism, tactlessness, restlessness, and frivolity. In an abstract sense, he brings bad news, delivers good news with poor timing, and generally has to eat his words.
When the Page of Wands appears reversed in a spread, we have a hard time owning our full potential. We put off the work we know we need to do, making excuses along the lines of being too busy fulfilling other obligations. We step on other people’s toes, or disregard their feelings entirely in taking an impulsive action.
Today, I overheard a conversation that pretty much sums up the shadow side of Sagittarius, and the characteristics personified by the Page of Wands reversed. A man who runs a catering business was meeting with prospective clients about servicing their wedding, at a local coffee shop I happen to frequent. He began to complain about the business practices of the owner of that coffee shop. He claimed that she sells coffee that is locally roasted, but for a higher cost than what is available at the cafe owned by the roasting company itself. He ended this claim with the question, “Who does that? Why would people come over here to pay more for the same thing that’s over there? I don’t get it.” The truth is, she serves the coffee for fifty cents less per mug fill than what the cafe sells it for. All the other beverage prices are comparable. So, not only did he give false information, he was potentially affecting the decision of his prospective clients as to whether or not they would visit this coffee shop in the future. It sounded to me as though he was actively discouraging their patronage of the coffee shop. He has an arrangement with the owner of the coffee shop that allows him to have these meetings with clients, sharing a business space with her. So, who openly speaks ill of a person with whom they have an ongoing professional relationship? Who does that?
The Page of Wands in shadow, that’s who.
It also seems like the Page of Wands reversed works to expose unethical actions, like the little kid who finally says out loud: “The Emperor isn’t wearing any clothes!” I am reminded of how, today, congressman Lamar Smith, (an author of the SOPA bill), was discovered to have used a photograph on his own web site without crediting the photographer, thus violating the very law he wrote and proposed to congress (see the story at addictinginfo.org).
Have you noticed the Page of Wands reversed at work, today?
Full Moon in Cancer: The Page of Pentacles, Reversed
11 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
in astrology and tarot, Card of The Day, economy Tags: cancer, Page of Pentacles, Reversals
I pulled a card yesterday (10 Jan), while focusing on the full moon in Cancer. I was a little surprised to see the Page of Pentacles, Reversed: the day I drew this card, as of 04:35 (a.m.) MST, the moon has transited into Leo the full moon energy still remains, basically making it possible to take the sensitive energies exposed by Cancer’s influence, and direct them outward to positively affect your surroundings. I do feel that the Page of Pentacles captures the high sensitivity to emotional upsets that people around me have been experiencing (including myself, who turned out to be on the PMS road).
Traditionally, the Pages represent messengers, students, youths: questioners and seekers after truth. I also see them as travelers, but with less of a destination or quest in mind (like the knights) and more in the sense of running errands or travelling to a new school. The seeker can be working with these energies, embodying traits of the page. Pages also herald events, as well, bringing their respective elemental energies to the seeker. The Golden Dawn pins the Page of Pentacles to the signs Capricorn and Taurus, but I have always associated it with Virgo, relating the Page more to health, diligence, and perseverance than work.
I’ve been picking up on interruptions in people’s work, lately, which ties to Taurus/Capricorn, but the interruptions have been health related. Illnesses have been lurking on the periphery of the Wolf Moon. In a most extreme instance, I attended a funeral of a family friend who past away in her sleep of natural causes, but after many other health complications. Incidentally, Mars has been in its shadow, preparing to go into retrograde at 23 d Virgo on January 24th; Mars retrograde in Virgo can bring the same energy that the Page of Pentacles, Reversed brings to the energy of the Full Moon in Cancer. Combined, what this says to me is that people in general must be sure to resolve difficult feelings within their home and family, and reinforce their sense of safety. For the people who are unable to resolve conflicts at home, or have problems feeling safe where they live, Mars retrograde will push that energy to manifest in the form of a compromised immune.
In other words, if you bottle in your emotions, you’re more likely to get sick. This is generally true, but issues that have been bubbling up during this full moon are especially implicated as fueling further events leading up to the Mars Rx in Virgo. It’s kind of cool how it all fits together.
On the flip side, anyone can use the energy around this full moon to identify and take steps to begin releasing any negative patterns in how you care for yourself. Maybe you had more arguments with your spouse this full moon on what’s for dinner. You wanted something spicy with coconut and ginger, he wanted something mild with beans and rice. You wanted a pizza, she wanted something with eggs. Individually, what each of you are craving could be pointing to differences in your nutritional needs. It all boils down to knowing yourself.
This energy manifested in a very real way; last Friday, I came down with a 12-hour stomach flu, which I think was triggered by a combination of a lapse in diet, combined with my current diet being drastically different from the normal “winter holiday” fare (lots of white sugar/meat/white flour). The Page reversed, by the way, has gotten so caught up in achieving perfection, that he’s begun to neglect his hunger, his need for changes in routine, and perhaps other ways that maintain his health.
In any case, those are my thoughts, and here’s a picture.
This is just a link…
09 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
…To a helpful article. I feel this information is just as enriching to my potential clientele as well as anyone who is interested in reading Tarot for themselves and/or others. Brightest blessings!
http://www.themetaarts.com/archives/2004march/bonniecehovet.html
Occasional Card of the Day: The Empress
08 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
I have to admit, I was expecting a reversal today. My dream last night disturbed me, I’ve been hit recently with three illnesses in quick succession, and have been experiencing money woes, to boot. Maybe this is a sign that this is all passing.
I want to share the translation from facade.com: “The Empress: The essence of femininity and matriarchy. Creativity, productivity, and the foundation of civilization. Initiative and practical actions that promote prosperity, comfort and luxury. Fruitfulness and motherhood.” What especially stood out to me was the phrase, ‘the foundation of civilization.’ To me the Empress is the Goddess of grains and animals, and agriculture has definitely birthed the society we live in today. I have never quite considered, however, the relationship between the Goddess of growth and modern civilization.
When The Empress graces any spread, the Goddess greets us in her aspect of the Mother, the full moon, the giver of life. She brings growth and creativity, abundance, warmth, comfort, nurturance and nourishment. This is not always a comfortable presence – if we aren’t ready to be open to her, we can have difficulties in accepting her blessings. Like the grandson of the Corn Mother, we might be appalled at the means by which the Goddess gives of herself to provide for us and close ourselves of to receiving her gifts.
With the Empress, we are invited to enjoy the fruits of our own creativity. The fullness of life is ours to savor. The seeds we have planted are fruiting, and we are called to celebrate the bounty of the harvest. We are called to embrace everything about ourselves and recognize that compost and decay are a necessary part of creating new life and growth. Like childbirth, it’s a messy process to create something new and breathe life into it. All around me in this society, I see a tendency to sterilize, to cleanse, coming out of deep fear reactions toward the bacteria and viruses that help to keep our bodies strong. The Empress reminds us that everything is a part of the grand cycle of life, even death and darkness.
In what ways are you experiencing the fruits of your labor? Are you embracing Her gifts with an open heart, or do you find yourself battling fear in accepting where those gifts come from?
For further reading on the Empress, check out http://www.crystal-reflections.com/tarot2/rider/empress.htm.
Brightest blessings.
The Occasional Card of the Day: The Six of Cups, Reversed.
27 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
in astrology and tarot, compassion, cups, intuition, Minor Arcana Tags: 6 of Cups, astrological significance, children, emotions, passive, past, relationships, Reversals, Virgo, zodiac wheel
I’ve been working on memorizing and polishing a layout: The Zodiac Wheel of the Year. Each card represents a house and potentially a sun’s transit of each sign, in the year. The card in the middle signifies the overall theme of the year, the focal point of the cycle – this can also represent the 13th Moon.
Part of the reason this works so well is because the Tarot cards each have an astrological significance: a planet, sign, or simply an element rules each card (sometimes planets and signs jointly preside over a card). As I have been working more with this spread, I am becoming more familiar with the astrological significance of each card, including today’s card, the Six of Cups.
The Six of Cups is related to the Sun and Scorpio (according to the Order of the Golden Dawn attributions); in that context, this card becomes all about exposing hidden emotions and restoring balance in relationships, especially through recalling childhood connections and affections. When reversed, old relationships return to play a new role in your life. You are easily able to recognize patterns in your relationships, and either celebrate them or release them.
I had a relationship that crashed and burned a few years ago. I was best friends with a girl for over half my life; we grew up into women together. Then, suddenly, I found myself unable to be in the same room comfortably with her, and found her more or less disinterested in me. I felt judged by her all the time, because I knew how her mind worked and I knew her opinions of my habits. Instead of communicating with her directly about her scrutiny, I let the tensions build and build until I moved away from the city where we both lived at the time, back to the city where we attended college together. A sort of climax occurred when I got married, and a lot of dissonance entered our personal interactions involving my wedding plans, but mostly the conflict went unadressed. After one really awkward conversation right before I moved back to Logan, we stopped talking for nearly two years. Upon my return to Utah, I was faced with all the old memories we had shared. The church we had attended together, the houses we rented (one of which I pass by on a regular basis), and mutual friends greeted me and I got to develop a new relationship with them, on my own terms. I realized that I had based a lot of my life and personal decisions on what I thought her opinion was of me and what was best for me: whether to conform to those opinions, or to rebel. Many of my impressions were correct, which on a lot of levels makes the reparation process more difficult. Now, she has expressed a simple disinterest in me as a person, and I have pursued some kind of closure, but haven’t been able to decide whether I wish to transform my relationship with her, or whether I just want to leave her behind and move on completely. On some level, I think she gave all of what she had to give in the moment, and I rejected that because I felt it wasn’t constructive for me, and so now she has given up altogether. Last winter solstice, we had a heart to heart, and realized that probably 99% of our frustration in the relationship involved reading too much into each others’ words and actions, and not talking enough about our own feelings. We had grown into each other’s heads too much to take a step back.
I still haven’t figured out the reasons behind all my complicated feelings to do with her, but I have learned a lot about mistakes I made, and how I want to approach my relationships from here on. I often lack the courage to keep in touch with her, knowing that I tend to anticipate her judgement of me, knowing that it’s not fair of me to do so; also knowing that she’s in probably 90% disagreement with my parenting strategies. I have learned that it is hard for me to be around someone who not only disagrees with me, but thinks I should be doing things their way. As a Libra with a Cancer ascendant (and I think my Aquarius moon comes into play, here, too), it’s important for me that my close friends share my core values. We can differ on the execution, but for me to fully relate to someone, they have to have certain priorities. I like just about everyone I meet just fine, but I don’t tend to have very intimate relationships with people I interact with on the surface. Few of my closest friends spanning ten years ago share these core values. I can’t imagine a casual relationship with this formerly close friend, after bonding with her so deeply. Since the 6 of Cups Rx called this relationship to mind, perhaps it can offer some guidance.
Under the 6 of Cups’ Rx influence, you may feel the need to make reparations for damage to others in the past. You are also likely to identify harmful behavioral patterns you have engaged in with old relationships. This card reminds us that now is always the time to release grudges and accept healing energy into your life. Any reversal gives us a chance to make amends for past missteps in our friendships. Those amends may not take the form of direct restoration, but may come in the form of a second chance in another relationship. Re-examine the person you were then, compared to who you are now, and see the ways in which your past experiences were necessary for the growth that led you to your present place. Love heals all wounds. In the area of health, it can indicate emotional outbursts stemming from hormonal imbalances.
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